Friday, December 25, 2009

Merapu about my family

Wanchu balik kampung dengan 2 kereta. Since Rexton rosak, Ayahchu terpakse drive Mercs and anakanda Qaliff bawak keta kancil berwarna merah balik, sebab keta tak muat.

Selalunya, bila diaorang balik rumah aku mesti kecohhh...maner tak nyer sorang-sorang cakap macam dengan orang pekak..hehe..rumah tepi jalan..hurmmm agak2 nya aper ehh aktiviti hari nie? Nak suruh cousin aku gi cari mempelam ahh...then petang2 duduk kat luar cicah mempelam dengan garam..slurrppppp...sedapnyer....

Ehh...maner lak Dania nie? anak dara wanchu yang paling kecik nie..mula2 datang agak2 pemalu gituh..pastuh pasti tanganku ditarik kena ajak main Barbie la..masak2 la..owhh patutla, dia dah jumpa rakan seperjuangan dia, Syuhada (anak Jiran aku)...tua setahun je dari Dania...kalau korang tengok diaorang sembang..nak tergelak pon ader, sorang cakap KL ala speaking gituh, sorang lagi cakap pio (pure) Perak nyer...aku pon kalah..

Kadang macam ayam dengan itik pn ader..kalau korang nak tahu, seronok layan budak-budak nie..yang diaorang tahu, makan, tido, main..takde masalah pon macam kiter yang agak2 tua nie (aku taklah tua sangat....tapi kalau nak banding dengan budak sekolah Rendah, diaorang panggil aku kakak..heheheh...senior ahh tu)

Haih, Wanchu cakap Aunty Nadia balik UK nak Xmas dengan family dia. Mesti Achik and Fariz tinggal sorang kat KL. Oiii Achik, balik ah kampung, tak ingat kitaorang kat Batak Rabit nie ke? Ramai-ramai kat kampung kan best...biler lagi nak drive keta baru jauh jauh..X-trail tuh, kitaorang tak naik lagi..meh ler balik...wek3x~

Hurmmm...lepas nie cousin2 mesti suke balik kampung...diaorang tatau lagi umah dah ader wireless..tak payah nak berebut laptop macam dulu...yang kecik sibuk nak main game online, yang remaja...sibuk nak check facebook la..friendsterla..blogla...kalau dulu, time kecik2 aku dengan cousin2 yang sebaya sibuk main masak2 belakang rumah..wehhh main masak, yang betul2 tau!! Pastuh kena pulas telinga sebab longkang Opah hitam...hehehe...then gotong royong kemaskan luar rumah Opah..

Anyway, this gathering may be the last for Zhafran, I mean before he fly to German, further study in Civil Engineering..ikut AyahChu aku Ir. Zaki...wish him all the best!

Okla korang...dah tatau nak membebel aper lagi..nie keje adek aku ahh..darik semalam aku balik..asyik2 "kak long..biler nak updated blog"...hambik ko..bacerla kemerapuan aku ini...

P/S: Wehhhhh kome yang tak buat ape-ape kat KL tuh, balik ahh kampung...Batak Rabit dihati ok...

Chenta Hearty

Thursday, December 24, 2009

All That I Ever Wanted

Some people have
such big dreams,
but all I want
is to love you,
to wake up beside you
each morning,
to feel the warmth
of your hand in mine,
to share each moment,
good and bad, with you,
to lose myself
in your loving arms.
Some people want
so much out of life,
but all I want
is to share
everything with you,
for us to talk long
into the night,
to dream together,
and experience
all of the little
things together
that makes life
worth living.
Yes, I have a
big dream after all.
And I want so
many things.
I want to spend the
rest of my life
with you.
And I want to
give you my love,
and to make our home
a place where
you always feel
warm and welcome,
and for us to have
a relationship in which
we accept each other
for who we are
and always find a
sweet dream in
each other's arms.
All I want is
for us to love
each other for the
rest of our lives.
And I do believe
that dreams can
come true.

Monday, December 21, 2009

My Cats, My Sweethearts...

To all cat lovers, korang mesti paham aper perasaan aku ketika aku ceritakan pasal kenkucing aku yang cute (Arghhh tak kira, cute jugak...) hehe~ Yang atas tuh gambar yang akan selama-lama nye aku abadikan kat dalam album aku..yang paling senior, Ghemok (10thn), Mickey and Minnie (adek-beradek, satu emak, satu bapak) kalau diaorang ader lagi maybe umur diaorang dah 4 thn.

Ghemok is my first FOREVER LOVE jumpe ghemok when i was during my matriculation in UPM. I saw her many times but she keeps running away..time tuh..MASHYAALLAHH...giler tembam ghemok tuh..and takde rupe pon macam kucing tepi jalan, aku raser dia sesat..even nak cari makan pon kekok je..If you all saw her when she was standing on her two foot, perut dia jatuh mengelebeh kat lantai..agak2 keje part time kat hostel kot..mop lantai dengan perut..


Jatuh cinta dengan dia maser tuh dia tengah main lalat aku tengok dia dari tingkat 5, G505 (tuh dorm aku)..isk3x! macam kena pukau dengan ke'cute'an Ghemok..aper lagi aku start moto gi 7-11 beli friskie, and umpan dia ikut aku..dari tingkat bawah sampai ahh tingkat atas..lepas tuh mak cik tuh terus melekat dengan aku.


Bila dia lepak kat bawah dengan geng yang tak sebulu dengan dia (maklumla, dia nie eksen sket..budget 'ROYAL') time makan je..aku jerit nama dia.."Ghemok..friskie..." 2-3 kali..huh laju je dia naik..aku tunggu 5 minit tak sampai, 10 minit tak sampai..confirm sesat...selalunye tingkat 3 atau 4. Confused kot...terchangak2x cari aku depan dorm lain..mmgla arrr tak jumpe..


Tepuk tangan, hushhhh berlari arah aku dengan kegembiraan..pastuh ader hati nak lumba naik tangga dengan aku..tercunggap2 tak cukup nafas dibuatnya...Anyway tuh cerita 8 tahun dulu..still kekal kat dalam ingatan..tuh ahh dah sayang mesti ingat :)



Then comes Mickey and Minnie, hadiah daripada X aku. konon2 hadiah birthday..sib baik chomel, kalau tak aku bagi balik...aku dapat diaorang nie time baby. Umur tgh menyusu lagi..so dengan secara automatiknya aku jadik ibu susu kat diaorang nie (Korang jangan pusing lak!! Otak kuning korang nie..) Beli susu tepung untuk kittens la...manja sangat diaorang nie..and baik je..tak pernah kasik aku marah..muka diaorang sentiasa manja..

Since satu lelaki and satu laki pompuan, cukup umur aku bawak diaorang gi sunat..takdela mengatal..tapi apa kan daya..bawak gi ospital kerajaan..paham2 la servis diaorang nie..hampehhh..tak payah la cakap banyak..diaorang tak sunat be..betul-betul..

Minnie bila dah remaja budjet jadik rebutan kampung..asyik jalan je merata, sekali tuh hilang 1 minggu, bapak aku jumpe mayat kena langgar kat jalan depan rumah..semua orang ingat Minnie, satu rumah menangis..aku gik keje pon mata bengkak2, tepon adek2 aku pon asyik buat flashback and nangis.."camnela perasaan dia biler mati..? bla bla bla..." 2,3,4 hari ahh kitaorang meratapi kehilangan dia..then...tetiba, muncul plak makcik tuh dari mane..muka dia tengin je buat tak reti, balik sebab lapar...RIndu Sangat kat Dia!!!

Then 2 minggu lepas tuh..she's gone until now...harap2 kalau orang yang jumpe dia, jaga dia and sayang dia macamner kitaorang sayang kat dia..

Mickey, abang yang penyayang..selalu beralah dengan adek dia minnie tuh..diaorang nie kawan rapat..kalau Minnie takde, Mickey mesti bising cari pastuh tak keruan adek dia hilang..masa time Minnie hilang betul2..Mickey takde mood langsung untuk makan and main..kitaorang semua risau..

Then satu pagi tu...dia pon hilang, raser dia cari Minnie...sampai hari dan tika ini..2-2 masih lagi hilang..

Gambar Minnie dalam ribaan aku, cutekan...?

Miss you all..
Chenta Hearty

Floating Heart...


It is now closed to 3.30am, I am yet sleepy. My mind is fully occupied with him. As what I always do, penned down my thoughts and this is what I've got. This is my feelings and i know that it will always be there...I pray that one day he will realize that my feeling is real and genuinely comes from my heart..

Dearest Heart,

Dearest Life...

When we’re apart you’re all I think of.
I long to see your eyes and smile.
Eyes that sparkles like precious gems.
A smile that lights up my heart with joy and love,
like the Light of the World shining down from Heaven.

I long to hold your hand.
Just a touch warms my soul on the coldest day.
I long to hold you in my arms.
Arms that give me such a sense of security
that nothing could ever take you from me.
I long to kiss your precious lips.
Lips as sweet as candy exploding with passion.

Forgive me if when we’re together
I can’t stop adoring your divine beauty.
Even though you don’t tell me you love me,
I know what love feels and looks like.
I see love glistening in your eyes.
I feel love in the warmth of you hands
and in the tremble of you kiss.
You may not be sure that you love me yet,
but I have no doubts that you do.

I often think I’m the luckiest girl in the world,
but God constantly reminds me that is not so.
It is His blessing, not luck
for me to have an angel like you.

By,
Ms Chenta Hearty

P/S: You can close your eyes to things that you don't want to see, but you can't close your heart to things that you don't want to feel

Sunday, December 20, 2009

The Story of 4 Sisters


Haihhh..disebabkan dorongan yang tak berenti from adek aku no.4, aku pon teruskan usaha memblogkan diri aku hari nie..two post in one day, dah la aku baru je belajar, terkemut-kemut aku memperah otak aku. Anyway, aku akan terus berusaha..CHAIYOK!!! Okayla..the only thing that cross my mind now is about me and my sister..owh ya, for your info i come from the family of 6, my mama, abah, me, diyana and the yongest are twin..dila and tia


Aku, yang paling first..paling banyak problem, paling banyak main, paling semua ahhh..hehe~ pendek kater, yang paling tuh semua aku..example to sisters tht not to be one..hehe~

Diyana is my second sister, yang paling matured and paling garang...now since she become a mother, asyik penat je adek aku nie..maner tak nyer, makan tido dah tak menentu..asyik letih jer..maklumla..bress-feeding, memang penat kot. Agak-agak kalau nak advise yang agak membantu, we can always ask from her. Pandangan dia agak jauh sket and selalunyer bleh pakai..tapi selalunye aku cari dia bila dah kantoi hehe~

Tia, my third sister, yang paling manja and suke buat lawak spastik and yang paling suke buat aku gelak Tia nie kira tempat yang agak comfortable nak bercerita ape-ape sebab dia tak judge orang, maybe sebab tuh kawan2 dia senang rapat dgn dia. Kalau antara kitaorang 4org, adek aku Tia nie, yang paling suke shopping. Kalau kakak2 dia yang tua, layan Tesco, Giant paling2 pon yang branded tunggu sale..adek aku yang ini..tak hingat...suka bergaya..SUKE POSING!! SANGAT2!! Pantang dapat camera (samerla dengan kembo dia)..tapi aku raser lepas menge'join'kan diri dengan blog nie..aku pon jadik camtu kot..hehe~

Dila, yang paling bongsu, paling cool...kalau dia marah sekali pon..muncong je ke depan, pastu dia blah buat keje dia..kalau kite buat tak reti, dia ok lar balik..Dia punye sense of responsibility, selalu buat aku respect. Kalau ader keje, tak payah suruh2, dia sendiri gi buat..lately nie, suka masak lak tuh..haih! bertuah saper yang dapat dia nie..

Kadang2 rindu plak time diaorang kecik2 jalan terkedek2 dgn pampers..CUTE!!

Love you all sis,
Chenta Hearty

From the heart



Time has passed by and I am still here, I am still holding on to myself and my believe...some says appearance is important, yes it i, but its only for the first expression.

I always caught in dilemmas for example...when my dad forced me to wear tudung..years ago, eventually i did and what happened is that he didn't know that I am free-hair when i was away from the family.


I was trapped in the situation which I cannot be who I am. Living in this pretending world, I ended up confusing myself with what i want and what people wants from me. And honestly, I still do...I still my finding ways to come out as myself... People always say "I am for who I am", but I can't say that, I am who they want me to be. Example, since my parents is Haj and Hajjah, do I have to cover myself because of them? They said, if I respected them, I have to do so. Obviously I understand what they feel, they don't want people come and tell them "Macam mane anak Pak Aji tak pakai tudung??" Haihhh..tatau nak cakap, diri sendiri pon tak betul..asyik nak tengok orang je..we have been living in a community who always care and concern what people think of us, little that we realise that we have to know ourself before other people can come and judge us. (Hurmmm one of living lesson that I have just learnt)

Don't you think, actually its all comes from our heart, for me right thoughts make right deeds, right actions and admirable character, therefore develop right thinking..

Parents always set barrier between themselves and their children. WHY??? because they wanted their children to respect them. Why can't just parents be like friends, that we can talk and share about everything? I would like to have that. I love if my mother could be one of my top best friends, i would love to share everything with her. Dad??? I could love if he could just spend time and listen for me..Of course I still need them to advise me what is right and what is wrong..but let me do the decision... Eventually, my parents are not that type, and to make thing worst, I am VERY rebellious and i tend to make decision that irritates them, I didn't look at the long term effects, I ended up react with the situations instead act. (Someone tells me that). This is the cause of upside down of my life.

To parents: Don't give too much of high expectation of your children, if u did and they failed, you could never understand how useless they will feel about themselves. Dont be only parents, be their friends too. Give them space to wonder, yet guide them. Dont stop them cause this will create their curiosity, and once it is there..they will find their way to peek and sneak out. Afterall, don't you want your children to be honest to you? Anyway, back to the question that i keep asking myself, who am i?

For all this while, I am the one who really cares about what people thinks of me, want from me..and from my childhood I have trained myself to put high expectations on myself. As what my abah always says "Kak Long, ko anak pertama, mesti jadi contoh kat adek2"..i have been living with that quote as long as i can remembered.

But funny thing is, my sisters came out better than me..my second sister, got married, got herself a career, good and devoted husband, cute baby..I mean, whatelse that she could ask for..she has everything..

The twins, they are lot matured than me, eventhough they are still small by age but sometimes they can reason better than me. i am now emotionally dependent on my sisters, when I am down, they are there..and they are always there. Even my existance is by their help (To:Tia and Dila..thanked GOD adek that i have greatest like you). They inspired me to open up the facebook and be one of the blogger to keep me in touch with friends, families, and those people out there who are waiting to know me).

Ok girls...i here just to tell you that if you feel that you want to share your feelings with me..i might be understand..if you wanted to ask me anything..just go ahead and be free..i will be here acting like your sister and best friend :)


Lots of Love,
Chenta Hearty

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